I leave behind the dark hillside enveloped with the mist rushing down from the mountains in sudden chilly gusts I leave behind the clapping the stomping of feet the words in season the home in their smiles I leave behind the boards creaking with our uncertain attempts to make flesh of the words on the page brought forth by the miracle of prophecy I leave behind the voices the music in the uneasy vans playing roulette with the traffic lights and the chaos of pedestrians I repeat the ritual of departure as one would rehearse lines remembering details by the position of the head or hand, the climate, the angle of the sun on the window, the noise of mornings, I test them these small icons to see if maybe I might miss them. For days I carry out this ritual of leaving until I am sure I have mastered it. (Resisting the Anomie, p.86)